I actually didn't take too many photos on Christmas day. Mostly because my lazy huge self laid around in any recliner I could find. Lala got Blair a sleeping bag and matching one for Baby that has been a big hit. Paired with the triple bunk bed that Gramma got her... that Baby has been doing a lot of sleeping!
|Cousins in Christmas jammies!|
I always get sad when Christmas is over but I also enjoy getting our house back in order. We spent the weekend putting away our loot and then putting away all of our Christmas decor. M was a huge help. I mean he kind of has to be since I'm still looking five months prego and can't bend over/reach for things. I feel like we are two weeks behind in life because it's basically a one man show over here. He has to help me with so much but there's only so many hours in the day. It's back to reality today with M back to work. All good things must come to an end!
Today we are supposed to find out if IVF worked. I'm crazy anxious but am glad the waiting will be over. I've been preparing myself for disappointment...surely my way of guarding my heart. It makes the fall less painful when you are expecting it I think. But at the same time I can't help but have a glimmer of hope. Funny how that works. I keep reminding myself that if now is not the time for us to have a baby then that was God's plan. It's not Him forgetting about me, it's Him choosing a better plan for our lives. There is a purpose in the waiting and He is working in this mess. I am determined to continue to be faithful and wait. In the meantime I'm trying to keep my eyes on Him and not let fear set in as it so often easily does.
Keep the prayers coming!