Day 3

Tuesday, March 6, 2012

Today started out just as the last two had, in the early hours of the morning.  Having to be awake to pump every 2-3 hours has a way of depriving us both of sleep and causing us to visit Blair at all sorts of odd hours.  The one good thing about the hospital is that we were never more than a few minutes from Blair's bedside and we took full advantage.  I got to hold her for more than an hour this morning and I was in a different world.  No time, no distractions, nobody but the three of us and we were in heaven. Normally I cannot sit still for a few minutes, but I could have stayed there (like that) all day long.


The tubes in her nose are helping her breath but we can see right past those; she still the most beautiful girl we've ever seen.  As the day wore on her condition did not improve so they hooked her up to another machine that looks far more intimidating, but still serves to help her breath. It breaks my heart to see her in anything but our arms, but we know it's for her own good.


The real bummer for the day is that we could no longer stay at the hospital and had to head home.  Driving away from the hospital without our baby girl was probably the hardest thing either of us have ever had to do.  Even though we're in the same city, she seems so far away. 

We've only gotten 7 hours of sleep in the last three nights so pray that we get a good night's sleep and that we are ready to tackle another day at her bedside. Pray that God is with the doctors and nurses that are caring for her at this very moment. Pray that Natalie and I have the strength and wisdom to keep God at the center of our family in this situation. Finally, pray that her lungs heal and her vitals stabilize as she is in God's hands...

12 comments:

  1. Praying for you three as often as I can throughout the last couple of days. Baby B is going to get better- she's strong, just like her mom and dad.

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  2. I just saw that your baby was born!
    Congrats!
    Sending good vibes on your way!

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  3. What a wonderful husband you are to update us on on Nat and the baby. I can only imagine how tough that would be to leave without her..but she will be in your arms soon--forever!

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  4. Thinking of you guys a ton...little Blair is the most precious little baby...even in the machine, she looks adorable. Praying that her condition improves every day and you can take her home. xo

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  5. Praying for you and little Blair! I can't even being to imagine how hard it was so leave her but she is in good hands (doctors, nurses, and God's). Praying she can be home with you soon and that you can get some much needed rest!

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  6. She is adorable!!!! Thinking of you guys and saying prayers for your family. Hope you guys got some sleep!

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  7. Tears! I found your blog via Natasha (schue love) ... Max and I will be saying lots of prayers for Blair and Family. Stay strong. Prayers do heal. I had a friend that went through a situation a few years ago with her baby (now a 2 year old)... she's a miracle baby!

    -Tara
    http://madmaxandfamily.blogspot.com

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  8. I am SOO glad you guys are posting updates because I log onto FB constantly only to see if you had posted anything new. Now I can come here every day! Your posts are so amazing. They make me cry big time! Dillon cried when he saw me crying. When I explained why, he anxiously said, "Mommy! We need to go there and comfort Blair!!" I obivously told him we couldn't and that the best thing we could do is pray for the 3 of you. I would love to see her but I'd much, much rather give you space until you have the energy to deal with visitors!! In the mean time, we are praying big time for you, down to the smallest details. I can't even imagine the difficulty of seeing her endure harship at her youngest age. Having to drive away must be excruciating. But she's in God's loving, tender, watchful care, and I'm praying that He sends His best angels for her. You will be home soon with your healthy girl. Thank you for updating all of us.

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  9. Thinking of you and your family!! I can't imagine how difficult this would be. xoxoxoxoxoxo

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  10. Thinking and praying for you (I came over from Schue Love).

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  11. Praying for you and your family. I came over from Schue Love. My last dr appt there was a couple there who was sent home without their baby. I felt for them and feel for you. She is so beautiful and I hope you get to bring her home real soon.

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  12. I am a new follower and just reading up on your birth story! Blair is gorgeous! I am a NICU mama as my little man was born 9 weeks early last summer...I am feeling your pain with the pumping every 2-3 hours and the lack of sleep it causes even without the babe at home!

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