Infertility Wednesday

Thursday, October 2, 2014

Once again I couldn't wait till Friday to post about my infertility woes. Went to the doctor yesterday to start another round of Clomid only to be told that I now have not one but TWO cysts growing on my ovaries. Fabulous. The doctor said that it is a side effect of the Clomid and that she can't prescribe it to me this month for sure and possibly next month too if they don't go away on their own. Eight out of ten times they go away naturally. Guaranteed I will be the 20% that don't go away naturally. She hasn't talked about removing them yet. Right now we just wait and see. I hear they can rupture and be very painful. I haven't had that yet and am praying I don't.

So this month the only thing I'll be taking is Progesterone and trying the old fashioned way. Sigh. I was so mad yesterday. I had quite the conversation with my poor Mom. "I'll never get pregnant! I'll never trust God! My life is so stupid!" etc. It was a full blown pity/rage party. She handled it pretty well. ;) I'm starting to get the feeling that pursuing infertility procedures and taking the meds isn't the way God has planned for us to get pregnant. Door after door has been slammed in my face. It seems each month we have a huge hurdle. So we're praying for wisdom and guidance in what to do next. For right now I think we will be slowing down, not only because we have to, but because I'm sensing this isn't God's will for us. I do think we will have more children. I'm just not sure when and how that will come about. I don't doubt that God can get us pregnant, I just doubt that it's in His plan sometimes.

As most of you saw I rewarded B and myself with some cake pops. One for each cyst!

One sticker for Blair and one for naked baby. Naked baby has all the fun!
We polished off the night with some Mexican food thanks to Matt's parents. B tried to sneak attack Grampa...

Hope your Thursday is better than my Wednesday...


  1. I've had cysts before and had them rupture. It wasn't terrible pain though. More like intense cramps. The terrible pain I had was when one grew bigger than my ovary and was causing it to twist. So I'll be praying that they go away on their own!

  2. Saw your post on FB yesterday and have been thinking of you ever since. Will continue to keep you guys in our prayers...I just know that there is light at the end of this tunnel. Sending lots of love!!! xx

  3. Oh Nat my heart goes out to you!! You are in my prayers and I know what you are going through and all I want to do is give you a hug and let you know that I agree "it sucks"!

  4. Ugh, Natalie, I'm so sorry to hear about the cysts. Unfortunately Clomid has some crazy side effects. I was on Femara/Letrozole which from what I remember has fewer. Just a thought if those cysts go away on their own - I will pray that they do!

    I'll also pray for your discernment - I remember that being so tough - we really weren't sure we were supposed to stop trying medically (I was on just the meds to help with my cycle) and had started looking into adoption. We prayed for months it seemed, and finally decided that we were just going to be open to life both ways and let God show us which way He wanted us to grow our family. But the waiting for the answer was still so tough. IF is such an emotional roller coaster!

    Anyway, prayers… and a virtual hug… you are not alone! :)


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