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We hit up the Sandwich Spot on our way back to town. Number 12 is my absolute favorite. We also stopped at the outlets in Cabazon. I got a couple of comfy shirts at Cabi (fit for a growing belly) and a new wallet from Kate Spade. It's just black and basic but I was due for a new one.
Normally I come up with some list of resolutions for the new year. But honestly, all I want to do this year is grow a healthy baby (or two). I guess if I had to choose a word for this year it would be "trust." It's funny because all along I thought that once I was pregnant my worries would be fewer. That is certainly not the case! I'm sad to say I'm more anxious now than ever. Anxious about my next blood test, anxious to hear the heart beat, anxious to see that the baby is healthy etc. I'm realizing there will never be a time in my life when there isn't something to be worried about. That's why it's so important for me to focus on each day at a time and to just trust God!
I'm constantly battling my fearful thoughts and playing out "what ifs" in my head. A verse from the sermon I went to this weekend says, "...and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ." 2 Cor 10:5 One of my goals this year is to recognize my negative thinking and to stop it immediately by going to Christ in prayer. Or as Daniel Tiger says, " If something seems bad, turn it around and find something good!" Ha ha gotta love Blair's kiddie shows.
So, that's what you can be praying for for me. That I keep my trust in the Lord and for a healthy baby(ies) obviously! And thank you so much for all your thoughts and prayers thus far! You guys bless me so much!
Looks like such a fun NYE!! I don't blame you at all about being extra cautious but hope the anxiety isn't too much to handle! I feel like as a mom the worry just never stops.
ReplyDeleteI'm loving your friends gold skirt. Where can I find it? Happy New Year!
ReplyDeleteIt's actually mine! She borrowed it :). I got it at a chain biutique called Francesca's last December. I've seen several similarly shaped ones though!
DeleteGirl, we are two peas in a pod. I know all to well the overwhelming anxiety. I was seriously crippled by it after our miscarriage with severe panic attacks and then through trying to conceive, tests, and pregnancies. And it didn't cam down once babies were born. With Ashlynn being early (like Blair) my anxieties tripled, I didn't sleep the first three nights she was home and would just watch her breathe. It wasn't until after Kenley was born and I seriously thought I was going crazy, did I realize/get diagnosed with postpartum anxiety and ocd. If you have a chance, read a little about it, to see if it fits any of the ways you feel. You might be able to find some coping mechanisms or a professional to help keep you from into those pits. It truly was unbearable for me, and I wish I would have been more aware. I only knew of PPD, and I knew I wasn't depressed, the anxiety wasn't even on my radar. Lots of prayers for you and please never hesitate to reach out to me
ReplyDeleteI think my anxiety is at an all time high because I have experienced nothing but disappointment these last two years. I've grown to expect bad news based on my history even though lately all we have been receiving is good news! It is always on my mind and I have to work REALLY hard to change my thought process. I spend half my time giving myself a pep talk and realizing my fear is not warranted. It's funny in the beginning with Blair being early I was obviously anxious but now I don't seem to fret over her at all. I guess I have other baby(ies) to worry about. Sigh. I'm realizing there will always be something to worry about when you have kids (and when you don't!)so I'm focusing on depending on the Lord since He is in control and I am not. Such a hard lesson for me to grasp but it does bring me peace. I'm going to look into those postpartum things though for some coping mechanisms because being in the pit is no fun and I know it is horrible for my health. I definitely don't need that right now! Thank you for sharing! I really appreciate it!
ReplyDeleteOMG I can totally relate! After getting pregnant with IVF I was still a pile of nerves! I was so concerned that anything I did would result in something bad happening! Having Trust is a great word for this year! I'm thinking of you and your family constantly!
ReplyDeletePraying for you girl! God has a great plan for you, I just know it! Sending lots of hugs your way!
ReplyDeleteBeautiful word. I love it! Perfect for this time in your life when there is so much anxiety, cautiousness and nervousness. Trust is a beautiful thing and allows you to let go of some of those fears and things you cannot control or change. I'm sending you lots of love and prayers.
ReplyDeleteTrust - perfect! Sending you so many good vibes!!
ReplyDeleteI love your word :) I had a similar one last year after having a miscarriage late into 2014. I'll be sending all my positive vibes and prayers to your family! Hope you're doing well! XO
ReplyDeletePowerful word! And I am right there with you. I am a worry wart by nature and I just need to learn to put 100% trust in Him. Praying for a great 2016 for you!
ReplyDeleteI know exactly how you feel about anxiety. I thought the same about fears being lifted once I was finally pregnant, but I worried throughout the entire pregnancy. So many prayers coming your way!
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