(In)Fertility Friday

Medical
Not much has changed since this post. Really hoping the cysts are gone by next month. Not that that would make me decide to go back on Clomid but it would allow me to avoid getting them surgically removed. Since it seems that the side effects of Clomid are outweighing the benefits I'm pretty sure we are done with that for a while. After all I have a cycle and ovulate all on my own each month!

Emotional 
As you recall I was a pretty unhappy camper last week upon discovering the cysts. But after having some time to cool off I can honestly say that I'm grateful God made it so clear that Clomid is not the route for us. We've been asking for guidance and clarity and this was as clear as day. I'm in a good place now. With each passing unsuccessful month I just give more of my trust to God and let go of some more of my desire to control everything and fix it on my own. Not the easiest thing to do but I do find relief in having direction...at least for this month.

Spiritual
A couple weeks ago we sang this song in church called Give Me Faith. It's my new favorite and goes like this:

I need You
To soften my heart and break me apart
I need You
To open my eyes, to see that You're shaping my life
All I am, I surrender
Give me faith to trust what You say,
That You're good and Your love is great
I'm broken inside, I give You my life
I need You
To soften my heart and break me apart
I need You
To pierce through the dark and cleanse every part of me
All I am, I surrender
Give me faith to trust what You say,
That You're good and Your love is great
I'm broken inside, I give You my life
And I may be weak but Your Spirit's strong in me
My flesh may fail, but my God, You never will
Give me faith to trust what You say,
That You're good and Your love is great
I'm broken inside, I give You my life
And I may be weak but Your Spirit's strong in me
My flesh may fail, but my God, You never will

I basically whispered my way through this song because if I sang any loader I would have cried. So I'm really really trying to have radical trust in God and his timing/purpose in all this. I want to glorify Him in my circumstances and try to step back and see the whole picture and not focus so much on each detail/road block.

With that said I'm SO excited to be up in Tahoe this weekend celebrating my best friend's wedding. It's going to be an awesome distraction and I can't wait to see Blair walking down that aisle looking like a mini bride. I'm sure my tears will be flowing just thinking about her wedding day. 

practice run

Clearly she needs some tights/bloomers under all that tulle but oh. em. gee. Is she precious or what?! Also what do you guys think...hair up in a pony with a gold headband or down with a gold clip as shown? I can't decide. I ordered these moccasins but they haven't arrived yet. :( Fingers crossed they do by the time you're reading this!